Why "Fluffy"?

Why "fluffy" and not from "fat" to fit?

Because I already have self-esteem issues and I really liked it when I heard Paula Deen use it to describe herself. She's happy being fluffy. I on the other hand am not, and so I don't mentally beat myself up over the shape I'm in, I will call myself fluffy. I'm not comfortable in my own skin, but I have to accept the fact that this is where I'm at - for now. It didn't come on over night - it's not coming off over night, but I'm making changes.

Now - did I do my walking routine today? No, but I did walk around the mall for a couple hours. Not enough to get my heart rate up, but then again I wasn't sittin' on the couch eatin' bon bons. Not that I ever eat bon bons...anyway - I walked 3 times so far this week - and tomorrow I'm gonna push for the 2 mile walk w/Leslie.

I can squeeze 1 mile in (15 mins) with minor interruption: The 2 yr old wants me to hold him as I'm trying to do my time, I put him down and the 4 yr old is fooling around in the bathroom washing her feet in the sink and then the 2 yr old joins her - only he's washing his hands in the toilet. So I pause my dvd, handle my "minor interruption" and get back to it. 15 mins has now taken me a 1/2 hour. Which is how long the 2 mile is. Hopefully it will only take me 45 mins.!

Nap time you say? To that I say what's nap time? But that's a whole other blog!

Check in w/you later!

You gotta start sometime!

So here it is. I'm putting it out there publicly.

I need to get in shape.

I started a walking program last week. My problem isn't the exercising it's staying with the program. I hate gyms so I found a lot of stuff I like to do at home. Leslie Sansone's In Home Walking, The Firm, Pilates, Gunnar's CORE program....you name it I've bought it.

Why so motivated?

#1 - I have two little ones that I need to be around for and keep up with.

I've been fooling around with 75 extra pounds on my body for about 4 years.

I've labeled it "baby weight",

but the truth of the matter is my "baby" is almost 2 1/2.

#2 - I found another roll in the shower. As if the fat that hangs over the bra added to the back fat roll wasn't enough! Just over my hips a new crease - ugh! And I used to have this cute backend -

like J-Lo - well maybe not as cute as hers, but it was cute.

You could see where my back ended and my bootie started.

Now it's just one big, wide mess.

And don't get me started on my thighs or arms.

# 3 - Time goes by whether I do something or not. A year ago I was all pumped to get in shape for a wedding I went to this summer. I was so determined. I just didn't get too far. Well, I didn't get anywhere really. I looked the same as I did last summer.

This is a new beginning for me. I'm doing this blog to help me stay motivated and accountable. If it helps others great! But I need to do this so I can stay on track. Almost like I'm checking in with somebody. Can't afford WW, Jenny Craig, Nutri Systems so I'm going with a blog.

If you want to follow me or join me on this journey, by all means, there's enough room.

I'd love to hear comments - so feel free!